I watched porn for the first time at 12 years old

I watched porn for the first time at 12 years old. It was at a sleepover with both boys and girls there. One of the boys who had watched it before suggested we should all watch. I remember feeling disgusted and strange. I wasn't even aware of my own body I wasn't ready. The women didn't look like me and they were doing things that I did not understand. The five of us in bed screamed and shut the computer off. I felt sick what had I watched.

Years later I tried to watch porn again. I was 18 and had been sexually active from 17 years old. Porn was different at this age I could choose the category and what I found "sexy" I could learn about my own sexuality and how to express myself in a way that I had not before. I now enjoy watching porn from time to time. It taught me now that female sexuality was positive.

Amelia